why is it so hard, all i want is a happy peacefull life, i dont want much, i am sitting in floods of tears while i write this,natalie and mo have been at it again, he has been chinnin her about keepin her room clean and she says he should'nt be in her room , then he says if her room was clean he wouldn't be in it , she says she is working all day and doesn't get a chance cause he comes in and tydies it, i can see it from both points but i am getting really down.      we have been getting on so well now it's back to square 1 i am feeling so bad i feel like cutting myself again, he has refused to come in to her room since it's happened on monday and as we are decorating said she will have to get an other electrition and joiner to do the work to do her room up cause she wants a new light and some shelfs taken down, he said when we came back "Natalie can do what ever she wants" I think that was a bit short lived...
I am just going to bed crying! x

My sister and her boyfriend had been out for a run all day on Sun and then they decided to go to the crematorium to visit a spot under a certain tree where we interned our mum and dads ashes, after that they went to the cemetery which is right next to it to visit Tommy Burn's grave, having paid thier respects etc they then head to the main gate only to discover..........yep u geussed it, they were LOCKED IN! Sheesh!
It closed at 8.30 and this was only 8 o'clock, someone had seen them wandering around the cemetery and called the police who in turn called the caretaker. He had been doing his rounds of the grounds and had not seen them so he had to come back and let them out, i don't know Would have been a good story if they had been there all night (spooky!) Trina x

How many toys does one kid need to take into the bath with her, its always a palava clearing the bathroom after she comes out Whatever happened to just ducks!   Click pic to make big x

The picture with the monkey was so funny because when the man had taken the picture, Jade started to walk away as she thought she was to keep it, we spent all day trying to explain to a tearfull Jade well she was only 4, then she decided she didn't want a monkey she wanted a dolphin instead These were taken a few years ago when we were at Benidorm. Trina x Click pics to make big! x PS..Sorry about the quality as it's a picture i've taken of a picture

You  may ask me three questions and I shall try to answer them. Things that you would like to know about me or my life, my past my future, what makes me tick, what makes me sick. From the mundane to the serious - fire away and I will endeavour to answer for you... but I make no promises!

Here is my new car, it looks small but it is actually quite roomy inside and the interior is red and black  which is good when u have 2 kids in it. x   Click pics to make big! x

I took Jade to my local pub's Gala Day yesterday and she had fun, there was a few rain showers but nothing to detter people coming to it. She liked the Bouncy castle slide the best.  Natalie and her friend came too but there was not much for them to do, they did get their faces painted though.  They refused to have a go on the mechanical bull, i was kiddin Natalie on and said I was going to have a shot and she said if i embarassed her by going on it she would kill me. Jade had her face painted as a butterfly and i had a wee design painted on the side of mine, they must have made a fortune cause it was £3 to get your face painted.Click pics to make big! x

It could only happen to her!

She went to the pub with her friends to watch a football match and after a few more drinks, decided to go home.  Standing at the bus stop, she meets a guy and they start chatting away quite the thing.  Turns out the guy is waiting on the same bus and getting off at the same stop.

After getting off the bus, they decide to go in to a local pub near were my sister lives as the guy had arranged to meet his friends there anyway.  So they are sitting there gabbing away quite the thing and after a while my sister says to him " There is something in the corner of your eye! "  She then proccedes to remove the forein object only for the guys eye to promptly fall out and roll up the sleave of her jumper.  Startled she jumps up and the eye falls out of her sleave onto the floor with the poor guy exclaiming " My eye, My eye! "
He then manages to retreve it and replace his eye after scrapling about under the table.  My sister said she didn't know who was more embarassed.  After apologising repeatedly she then hits out with " You were just trying  to get a look at my tits there weren't you!"
OMG! 

Still all was forgiven and she stayed for a few more drinks and then she left and they were still good friends.  Trina x

We took Jade and Natalie to "Zippos Circus" last Friday and i thought it was brilliant, normally i don't really think much of circuses but this one surprised me. Even the clowns were funny! There was a couple in inflatable suits and they were so funny too, a tightwire act a girl with lots of hoola hoops, a guy spinning on a rope. There was also 4 georgeous horses and the man who trained them had a daughter who came out with 4 miniture horses as well and they were jumping through hoops.  Trained budgies and a little Jack Russel, a contortionist (who was from England, funnilly enough) and dancers, all in all it was a good night and i thouroughly enjoyed myself.  It was that good Natalie and Jade went back to see it again on the Sunday.  One thing i will say though..............stay away from the hotdogs YEUGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!     Trina x

well for those who know me...................As you know my car was written off as some stupid guy crashed into me, it took ages to find out what was happening.  I eventually phoned the number my insurance com gave me and the guy was like " Sorry but there is no record of your car ever being here?"     "What! U kiddin me on"  So i had to phone the place that actuallly took my car away, the guy said "Ye we picked up your car on the 17th, well it was taken away on the 24th to be scrapped, your insurance company should have informed you about this"  "Well they bloody well didn't" I said.    "I still had stuff in the car that i wanted, like cd's and Mo's Alpine stereo (which he loved)  Jades booster seat etc." I explained.  " I suppose u could phone them up n ask if they had kept any of the stuff?" he said.

So he gave me the number, but the place was in Whitburn, which is absolutely miles away, by this time i had had enough i was absolutely fumming.  First i can't find the car, then find out they scrapped it without telling me, assholes! So Mo spoke to them and found out they were about to scrap it but would manage to rescue the stuff, then he agreed to pay the postage for them to send the stuff to us.  A few days later i realised i had just bought 6 months road tax and the disc was still on the car, luckily they sent that back as well.  So more time goes by and i still hadn't heard how much his insurance were willing to give me for my car, Mo phoned my insurance and they said " We have been informed that you have already agreed a settlement"   "AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!"
how much worse can this get, i was begining to think this must be a joke or something. Nobody had contacted me or written to me about any settlement, so we left it to them to sort it out.

Evenyually they phoned and said to Mo, "They have offered you £800 for the car" and Mo said no that was not acceptable as he was going to trade it in, so then they came back to us and said "They have offered £1400"  and he said thats fine, which is brilliant since i only paid about £800 for the car in the first place YIPPIEE!

So now i have a nice new car, all lovely n shiny it's a Citreon C3, 2005 plate and it has only done 12000 miles, lovely!   x