Trinax

Had a phone call, last night about 1.30, i was still up and it was Natalies dad.

He was inconsoulable, couldn't get a word out him for ages. He has phoned me before and i have told him he is depressed, to go to the doctor n get some help.
He kept going on about how sorry he was about what he did to me years ago , how he let me down when we were married and stuff,
tell u a story

Fell pregnant at 20, soon as his Mother found out, when u's getting married, cause they were devout catholcs.
Got a house in Cranhill, just him working.
Decided he didn'y like working, wanted to be with his pals to smoke Hash,as in most times overnight,.............. then i was left with the baby all the time in a horrible area.
Struggling for money, having to ask his parents
Didn't have a cooker or fridge for 6 months cause we couldn't afford one so had to buy microwave meals all the time (his parents bought it as a housewarming present)
My sister was working with the social work and managed to get us a cooker n fridge someone was giving away
He decided to chuck it work that is, so was barred from the brew for 6 months and did not get any dole money
I decided to go back to work when Natalie was 6 months
Had to get up at 6 in the morning to walk to his parents house so they could watch Natalie while i was at work
I only lasted 6 months and then found out he hadn't claimed for Housing Bennefit so we were up to our eyeballs in rent arrears
Was that bad i was having cold toast for lunch in work, my supervisor even lent me a tenner cause she could see how bad things were
By this time i had had enough and decided to leave him
I ended up leaving my job and made myself homeless
Natalie was just over 1
I was in and out of 3 different homeless flats before i was offered a house of my own
Natalie was 4

Everytime i went up to his parents house to let them see Natalie, i was always sneered at or ignored and given dirty looks cause they blamed me for us splitting up. Chris lost the flat.

So now were 15 more years down the line and i'm not just saying this to make me look good but he has never had another serious relationship and lives with his brother in the parents house as both parents are now dead.
He has never had any real relationship with Natalie as he didn't see her for years then when he did it would be months at a time he would not have any contact with her, this is still the case not even a phone call.
I have never received any money from him towards her upbringing apart from a couple of cheques from the CSA at £40 each, everytime they caught up with him when he was working he would chuck his job so he would not have to pay it.

Sometimes when he's drunk he phones me to tell me he still loves me and how sorry he is, why can't he just move on, he is depressed because he is lonley but there is nothing i can do about that. I am begining to worry, i would never forgive him if he did something stupid because i know Natalie loves her dad and would be devastated. Trina x

Went for lunch today in Mings ,Princes square , Glasgow, one of the upmarket places in Glasgow go about once a month with my sister her pals etc.  Here is some pics of them enjoying their meal this is Suzanne, my sister Marie, wee Kurtis, Teri and jade.This is my neice Demi on the left, Natalie and Justine.
Kurtis was having noodles and decided to sneeze resulting in everybdy getting sprayed with noodles, it was so funny, then he decided he wanted to come with me when i was going for a fag and i had to walk through the entire Food Court with this wee dude in tow cause it's 3 floors up and i need to go to the back door to go n have a fag, he was so slow cause he decided to wave to everybody that he past , sitting eating, (glad i'm past this stage n my kids are all grown up)    Outside there was a big noise like a generator or something and Kurtis shit himself n was clinging on to my leg .  Then he saw some pidgeons and decided to chase them so he was fine, all in all it was a good time . trina x Click pics to make big! x

Even though i have bought her a laptop,

YES! I bought Natalie a laptop so i copuld use the computer, but everytime i go to use it her pal is on it  "WHAT!"  only kiddin i don't mind her on it , cause i love her to pieces,  Anyway Natalie bought her first pair of Designer Shoes today and i was like OMG she is not a wee girl anymore she is like a proper woman and they were absoloutley to die for.

We went for lunch (later post) in Princess Square, in Mings our usual haunt and after it looked about and went into a designer shop called Browns.  That was the shop i bought my sister a blouse out of for her 40TH birthday and it cost me £90.  We were looking about and Natalie came up and showed me a pair of shoes, cost price £320............reduced to.............£55,  i thought that was brilliant but wouldn't splash that out on my self.   "I'm buying them" she said, aw well if u like them then buy them. I told her to try them on I kept going on about them, and i think Mo is going to buy me a pair tomorrow, YEHHEAA!   X Click to make big! x